Nerves

April 16th, 2012 | Shonali Burke | 32 Comments

nail bitingWell, it’s here.

The day.

The day I’m back at Waxing UnLyrical (hi!!!).

The day I get back to my “real” life… as well as my online one.

The day I officially start my new job, after several years of being my own boss.

I’d be lying if I said it didn’t feel a little weird.

But I’d also be lying if I said I wasn’t excited, nervous, hopeful, apprenhensive…

Those butterflies that should be flitting around April showers and Spring flowers?

They seem to have taken up permanent residence in my stomach.

Every single time I’ve started on a new venture, I’ve been nervous. So, while part of me wishes I could crawl back into my pajamas and cocoon of home-and-husband-and-dogs, part of me is grateful that all these years on, I’m still nervous.

It reminds me of when I used to act (like, on a stage… you know, “real” acting). No matter how many times we’d performed the show, we were always nervous before we went on. Which might be why I stayed so thin all those years, since I couldn’t eat anything for fear I’d throw up, but I digress.

I don’t know how you react to nerves, but my nerves, and nervousness, remind me of so much.

They remind me that I don’t know everything (but you already knew that).

They remind me that I’m human (you already knew that too).

They remind me that while I might have come a long way, I have an even longer way to go (you knew that too… dang, you’re smart!).

My nerves are keeping me alive.

They were fairly calm the last few weeks thanks, no doubt, to the stellar team of WUL bloggers who kept this blog going (thank you, all!), and so many good wishes coming to me from so many different directions.

And now they’re reminding me… it’s show time.

So would you wish me good luck… or, rather, to break a leg?

Thank you!

And… how do you deal with your nerves? Do you get them, still? Or have you found a way of putting them permanently in their place? Do share, I’d love to know.

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Head honcho of Waxing UnLyrical, Shonali Burke is President & CEO of Shonali Burke Consulting, Inc. Based in the Washington, D.C., area, she loves helping for- and non-profit clients, both small and large, turn corporate codswallop into community cool™. She also loves ABBA, bacon, cooking, dogs, and Elvis. Wouldn't you like to be in her kitchen?
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3HatsComm
3HatsComm

Here in Atlanta, McDonald's has strawberry smoothie things. Step 1) Buy one Step 2) add vodka or rum = no more nerves. ;-) Kidding. Was speaking at an event a couple years ago, one of the speakers quipped that - good one.

 

I tend to let my mind run - play thru scenarios to work past the nerves, but they never really go away. The tricky part for you - or me, if I landed that dream job of blogging about wine, travel, TV and PR all day ;-) - is the 'not your own boss.' You're used to being THE decision maker, now you have to work with others who may have different approaches, different schedules; sure you'll make the most of it, nerves and all. FWIW.

jennimacdonald
jennimacdonald

Shonali I hope you had a great first day yesterday! Looking forward to hearing about your updates.

rachaelseda
rachaelseda

Congrats Shonali! I too get nervous about these things, who doesn't? But it's a good nervous, it reminds me of the first day of school every year! I like to remind myself that everyone else is nervous too and to take that energy and use it as excitement to drive me!

 

I know you're going to do wonderful. They are so lucky to have you!

mdbarber
mdbarber

I'm sure you will be wonderful, smart and witty today. I'm sure you'll also have some anxiety for several days. We all do. I don't think we ever get over that feeling, for all the reasons you stated above. The nerves are what, IMO, keep us all active and learning. The nerves remind us to listen and learn, rather than blurt out what we know. They allow us a few moments to quietly assess and frame our words. I am confident you will do that and more today, just as you have every day. Good luck my friend. They are lucky to have you on their team.

Sean McGinnis
Sean McGinnis

Thinking of you this morning Shonali. Butterflies are great - it's how we know we're alive and that we care about the outcome of our efforts. I do miss the stage.... sigh.

CarolHamptonRasco
CarolHamptonRasco

You're gonna be great, absolutely great!

And think about us at RIF as we launch BOOK PEOPLE UNITE and say farewell to a certain blog...smile.

Thinking about you!

KirkHazlett
KirkHazlett

I get those "jitters" every January and September when classes resume, Shonali. I think that's what keeps the excitement level...and the productivity level...so high. The world is changing by the nanosecond, and I revel in the challenge of staying slightly ahead of the game. You're at this new on-ramp in your career because you are very, very good at what you do...and the folks who asked you to join the team know that. Wishing you the absolute best of luck in your new adventure! (And that's what it always should be...an "adventure"!)

KenMueller
KenMueller

Great to have you back. You've been missed, and we need to find time to chat! Congrats on the new gig. I'll be anxious to hear how things go for you today. I, for one, know you'll be great!

Howie Goldfarb
Howie Goldfarb

I can just imagine that moment at 10am

 

Phone rings

 

Shonali: Hello

 

Boss: Good morning Shonali

 

Shonali: Good morning Boss

 

Boss: Can you please get me a coffee black one sugar and a bagel toasted real butter?

 

Shonali: Sure thing Boss

 

Boss: Here is your weekly check for $7k and you get a weekly bonus if the bagel is toasted at exactly 400F for 3 mins and 28 secs.

 

You should hire me to be bagel boy for $2k per week and take that burden off your hands.

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @3HatsComm Hahahah!!!

Yes, the "not my own boss" part is definitely going to take some adjusting to. For example, after I got back from #mybootcamp today, I couldn't dilly-dally with my cuppa tea, or shower/change later... I had to hustle, get ready & get on with it. I'm sure there will be growing/settling in pains (and then more settling in pains every time I get a little too comfortable!) - but the vibe feels good to me, as I was saying to @jennimacdonald  - that means a LOT to me. And the fact that you took the time to stop by, when I know how busy you are, means a LOT to me too. Thank you SO much, Davina!

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @adamtoporek It was! I'm tired (I mean, when was the last time you saw me online at 11:22 pm!), and it will take a few weeks to settle into the new routine, I'm sure, but everyone was so nice and welcoming. If the first day is any indication, it's gonna be great!

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @mdbarber Well, I was pretty quiet today (stop laughing!), but that's how I usually am in new situations. I really like it there - and you're so right about the nerves. They've settled down considerably (and now I'm trying to figure out how on earth I'm going to get up at 5 am tomorrow for #mybootcamp!) - and hopefully they will continue to do so. Thanks so much for your good wishes, my friend!

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @Sean McGinnis Thank you so much! You and so many other friends were so kind and generous with their thoughts, it meant a lot to me.

HOW is it you and I have never had a conversation about the stage thus far?!!!

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @hackmanj Tru dat - talking it out makes it easier to deal with, doesn't it? Thank you so much, Joe! You know, my husband stays very much behind the scenes, but he is a HUGE source of support and confidence. I owe so much to him - to friends like you, of course - but he's ... well, him. And he keeps me sane!

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @CarolHamptonRasco How kind of you, Carol, thank you so much! I've been thinking about you a LOT - I know I owe you an email and it is coming soon! I'm excited for BPU to launch - do keep me posted!

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @KirkHazlett You are SO kind. Thank you, Kirk!!! The next few weeks are going to be a little rough (in a good way) - I'm almost at the end of my Hopkins class with three papers to grade (two this week, AARGH!), and some more travel coming up... but hopefully once mid-May rolls around, things will be on a more even keel (fingers crossed).

Shonali
Shonali moderator

 @HowieSPM ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!!! I can always rely on you to give me a huge smile, Howie. Thank you, my friend!

Sean McGinnis
Sean McGinnis

 @Shonali It's not something I talk a lot about. So many lives since then, but graduated in '88 with  a degree in acting. Did some minor musical work, but never anything professionally. Put it all behind me when I went off to law school in '90. :)

3HatsComm
3HatsComm

 @mdbarber @Shonali I'm certainly a 'watch and listen and learn' type, smart to take a little while to find the comfort zone and get a read on people.

Sean McGinnis
Sean McGinnis

 @Shonali Oh, hey! I totally see what you did there... ;) This impending discussion only makes me want to meet you more. Gah!

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